I wonder why it's so difficult to do the one thing I love the most.
Why I don't take the time to write just for myself.
It's cathartic, to say the least.
Now with one of the biggest steps I have to take in my life coming up, I am nervous. No no, I am not getting married! It would be fun though. That's material for a different post.
Placement fever is in the air. Being tested, interviewed, judged. I swear I am getting nightmares and sleepless nights all at the same time.
My appa asked me what my goal was - as in where do I want to be, where do I want to work. Frankly speaking, I just want a job! Terms like economic viability just don't make sense to me right now.
Add to that the fact that the very first placement test is on Palm Sunday. One of my most favorite Sundays. What/Who do I choose? Is it a test of a different sort?
I don't think of taking Sunday off for a trip with friends, so why should this Sunday be any different?
Should I give up the test which is going to hire the highest number of candidates and gives me a shot at being in Chennai?
As I always have and will continue to do, should I leave everything up to God and trust that He will give me the place that I want?
Confusion.
