Fandoming

I have made a huge mistake. One that is currently five books long. It's called 'A Song of Ice and Fire'.

Being a regular on Imgur, I was not unfamiliar with the somewhat garbled premise of the show as depicted through memes, screenshots and gifs. But as always, I HAD to read the books before watching the TV series, and so I bought a box set from a guy on a FB group who did not have time to read it and "preferred watching it anyway." Ugh.

And so I rescued the books and gave them a better home, on my bookshelf. Where they stayed for a long time. Three or four months to be precise. In my defence, it was a daunting prospect (have you seen the size of each book?! At least Harry Potter gradually increases in size!). I was also directing a play at the time, and Christmas, New Year etc happened. Anyway. I finally began.

One and a half books in, I am still in love with Ned Stark, as much as Lady Catelyn still is. I still can't believe George R. R. Martin killed him. It hurt almost as bad as when Dobby died. I even went to the Wikipedia page to check if he was really, REALLY dead. Damn you authors for making us love people and mercilessly killing them off.

SO anyway. I have found a new fandom.

Tyrion Lannister is my favourite currently.Oh please don't die Imp. 

Lazy bum

A year and eight months since the last post.

Not for lack of trying; I often log in, at least once  month, think of what to write, fail to come up with anything, and so I log out again.

I suppose all the writing juices flow away with the work I do. Since the last life update, I have shifted departments, moving to a writing job. In a paper I grew up reading. Working with people whose stories I remember reading while I was still small enough to sit on the paper. It's been nearly a year, and I still can't believe how blessed I am, and how, even thought it wasn't the straight path I wanted or expected it to be, I finally was guided to where I wanted to be.

I sure as hell haven't been lazy at work. It might not be backbreaking, but it is still taxing. But it leaves me with a feeling of pleasant mental exhaustion. Sometimes, it's almost like the high one gets from quizzing:a knowledge high, tempered only when one wins a gift voucher to an optician. I may read all night with bad lighting, but my eyesight is perfect thankyouverymuch.

Which reminds me to go for the next quiz, preferably the pub quiz, because hey, why would I complain about advancing intellect combined with a shot of whichever alcohol I win.

Books vs. tablets

Of late, I've been seeing many posts online asking what tab is best for kids for gaming and educational purposes. 

As a confessed bibliophile, who is following the yellow brick road to bibliomania, this is driving me nuts.

I'm not a parent, nowhere close. And I'm not dissing technology, I love it and I love how kids can adapt so easily to gadgets. It's second nature to them. I learned how to use an iPad from my then five-year-old cousin.

But still, there's something to be said for books. 

I won't make a list on why parents should buy books instead of tablets for their kids. 

I will, however, list why books are better as far as I am considered.

Books last longer. They tear and pages come loose and turn yellow, but it's nothing a little cellotape can't fix.

Books don't break when dropped. Especially useful for klutzy people like me.

Books don't get ruined when you spill water on them.

Books aren't expensive, if you know where to look. Thrift shopping for books is the greatest fun.

Books take you places both literally and figuratively.  

Books can teach you words and about worlds and weirdly wonderful worms.

Books make you imagine. They made me imagine. They still do. Imagination helps in more ways than just creating interesting daydreams when you’re 23 and sitting at a desk from 9-5.

Kids should read. It doesn’t matter if they’re magazines, comics, novels...  Introduce them to books. Books will be their BFFs.  

Books will make them better people.  

Tessie

It always takes loss to make me write.

Now, we've always lived in houses where I could not have a pet. I love dogs and for as long as I have remembered, wanted a dog of my own. Since it was near impossible for me to have one, I settled for the next best thing - "adopting" my chiti-chitapa's pet as my own.

Tessie - what a cute little 45-day-old furball she was when they brought her home 10 years ago. With her long furry snout, intelligent brown eyes, perky ears and long pink tongue, she stole my heart. Barely two days later, we were off as a family to Munnar; of course we could not leave the puppy behind, so she joined us in the bus.

Over the years, every time I went to chiti’s house, Tessie had a special affectionate bark for me. Everyone would know it was me who walked in just from hearing the tone of her bark. It made me feel so special! We rolled and wrestled, played fetch and run and I loved stalking with her. Seems silly now, but it was fun, and I don’t regret a moment of it.

Tessie would get upset if I went to play with her after visiting any of my friends who have dogs or cats at home. She would sniff around and stalk off with her bushy tail shaking in a huff. I could almost see a disapproving look on her face. She sure knew how to make me feel guilty.

As a teenager, all the “angst” one can feel can sound pretty stupid (as it probably was) to the best of friends. I’d talk for hours on end to Tessie. Patiently, she’d sit at my feet or lick my face as I poured out my imaginary woes to her. If she could have spoken English, she might have said, “Shut up and get a life.”

As it was, Tessie spoke volumes in the way she could gauge people’s moods and try to behave accordingly. Extremely smart, she would obey anything we said immediately. She also loved walking over people’s feet and as my cousin Sharon will bear testimony, loved licking a person’s face till they woke up.

For all her strength and size, Tessie was a very gentle animal. Children could jump on her, pull her ears and tail, drag her around by the collar – she would not even growl or bare her teeth. The most she would do is shake them off and run away. Such an angel.

Even while she started losing her strength, she remained fiercely independent. Painfully, she would drag herself up the stairs before we could walk down to give her food. After Batty arrived on the scene, Tessie let her know who the boss was! They did become friends eventually, and I am sure Batty too misses her.

The last time I saw Tessie, I almost left without saying bye to her. If I walked out the gate without yelling “Byeeeee Tessie-girl” and giving her a pat on the head or cuddling her (much to my mother’s annoyance), she would get this sad look and psych me with those big doleful eyes. Talk about a puppy dog look: she had it perfected. This time was the same – even though I did not know it was the last time, I went back in, patted her head, kissed her nose and said bye.

When I cry at her loss, and forgive me the cliché, it is for a faithful friend. The thought that I will never hear Tessie bark for me, or see her gambol around my legs…

I like to think there’s a doggie heaven where the wind blows gently through her furry back and where there is plenty of lush grass for her to run through and a never-ending supply of big juicy bones for her to gnaw on and friends who love her as much as I do.

Miss you Tessie-girl.

New-ness

I wanted to do a New Year post. Then I got lazy and there was a bunch of other things and I do not know why on earth I am apologizing to myself for being a pro procrastinator. Anyway. I'm here now.

The new year: I cannot call it good. I cannot call it bad. But everything has been new.

I started a new job. Not what one may call a dream job (and believe me, people have called it anything BUT that), but it's one tailor-made for me. It involves social media and the Internet - two of my three great loves (the third one being books, and Josh if you're reading this, you are in a different category love). It's my dream job. I enjoy it. I revel in it. So yeah.

That's the good part.

I lost a friend. I shall not dwell on that.

That's the bad part.

Otherwise life has been so-so.

A new place, new people, new routines, new habits.

A new dimension to relationships.

The past month has been filled with new-ness.

I wonder how many more new things I will learn this year. 

How to drive.

A ten-step guide on how to drive alone in traffic for the very first time.


Step 1:

Strike ill-advised deal with father, stating that you will be allowed to drive his car if you go for refresher driving classes

Step 2:

Start going for said driving classes. Enjoy yourself.

Step 3: 

Immediately start pestering father for a chance to drive his car. (Rope in mother for extra persuasion power). Continue till father gives in and gives late night driving lesson. Get hopes up as you successfully drive parents home for the first time. Experience immense pride and happiness at accomplishment.

Step 4: 

Go for a couple more classes. Gain more confidence to drive in traffic.  Beg driving instructor to allow you to practise driving at school time in Kilpauk and Purasaiwalkam.

Step 5: 

While headed out with father alone in car, start a row with him and throw a fit about how he should let you practise in a real car and not just keep talking about it. This will ensure that he gets out and leaves you with car (keys included).

Step 6: 

Call father multiple times. If that fails, call mother and ask what to do. By this time, father would have told mother that you can get the car to where she is by any means necessary.

Step 7: 

Accept challenge. Slip into drivers seat, start car and commence driving.

Step 8: 

Take a right turn, slightly scratching side of another car that is turning into the same street. Have such a look of fear on face that the other driver kindly lets you off the hook.

Step 9: 

Reverse the car (for the first time ever) with help of people around. 

Step 10: 

Grit teeth, straighten out the car and reach destination, reversing multiple times in a struggle to take a single u-turn. Park car and hand over keys with glint of triumph in eyes.

That is all.

Family

So I was checking my Facebook... Ok I was wasting time on Facebook when I should have been sleeping.. And I came across this:

"Copy and paste this as your status and tag the letters given below and tag the first person which comes in the option when you type that letter. NO CHEATING!"

And these were my results.

(TAG C) My best friend - Sjv Chelliah (Mama)
(TAG V) My hottest friend - Vinitha Visuvasam (Cousin/BFF)
(TAG R) Someone meaningful Roshan James (Cousin)
(TAG N) Someone i will never forget - Nikhat Jahan (BFF)
(TAG k) I admire you- Katherine Samuel (Cousin)
(TAG A) My most dashing friend - Aishwarya Ashok ("Mommy")
(TAG P) My sexiest friend- Usha Paul (Perima)
(TAG S) You mean a lot to me - Sharon Sangeetha Samuel (Cousin)

Two conclusions:

Yes, I have a lot of BFFs, and I see nothing wrong with it.

I have a LOT of family on my FB friend's list.

That is all.

Chasing cars... err... Camels...

This is a slightly modified version of what I wrote for the paper. The person behind the scenes is my dad, who drove me to all these places without salichifying,  and we had fun in the process too!

At 6AM on Friday morning, an open ground at MR Nagar off Pulianthope High Road bears all the signs of being a cattle market – the sound and smell of sheep, men and women haggling with the traders and vehicles waiting to take away the animal.

The sheep are coded using colour powder according to the trader; some are pink, some green, and some multicoloured. They bleat loudly as their traders entice potential customers to check out the animals. “We have the best among the lot here,” claims one man, pointing to a herd of about 50 sheep covered in pink powder.

With Bakrid around the corner, over 20 individual traders from Cuddapah in Andhra Pradesh have brought their sheep for the Chennai market, and are doing brisk business, to say the least. As interested Muslims examine the sheep to get the healthiest ones, the traders run their sales pitch. They are unwilling to reduce the price evn by a few hundred rupees. Hard headed fellows.

Rajesh, one of the traders, says, “Apart from transport, we also have to pay for our food, stay and the helpers. Under those circumstances, the price is reasonable. We barely make Rs 1000 on each animal. This is the last day for us to sell the animals. By afternoon tomorrow the sacrifices should be over, so we will leave tonight or early tomorrow.”

Meanwhile in a small street off Broadway, a few camels chew the cud lazily as they sit next to a mosque in Mannadi. They have been brought down from Rajasthan especially for Bakrid by several groups of people. While the price of an entire camel can be prohibitive for most families, they have the option of sharing it with other families.

Dastagir, who is one of the many people who organise to procure the animals, explains how the sacrifice works in case of a camel, saying, “When the qurbani is done, the names of the seven families will be recited. That is what we mean by splitting the cost. After that, the meat is also divided equally among the families.” Each camel costs Rs 35,000 to Rs 40,000, he says, adding that once an approximate number of people who will purchase a share are known, the camels are brought by walk from the north.

The state vice president of the Jananayaga Muslim Munnetra Kazhagam (JMMK), Dastagir says that they do not do this for the money. “We are doing this to help our fellow-Muslims. Not everyone can manage this, and since we have the means to do so, we take care of the arrangements. It is not about profit,” he says.

The other option for sacrifice is cows, and these sell for about Rs 1300 a share. Mehrunisa, a housewife, says that the tradition differs for each family. “The animal chosen for qurbani depends on each family’s preference. As long as our sacrifice is healthy and up to the standards, we do not mind anything,” she says with a smile.

Obnoxious

I like Alecia Moore. Also known as P!nk. She has a way of singing what I feel.

Listening to "Please don't leave me" and I hear the lines:

"How did I become so obnoxious?
What is it about you that makes me act like this?"

What makes me that way when it comes to certain people? Keeping it all in a little box at the back of my mind works for a while. But that box has a short fuse attached to it. Spark it off and BOOM. I barely know what hits me.

Till then I am calm, collected and rational. Once that goes, so does all reasonable thought.

Time for some anger management?

May be I just need to get out. 

My Madras

I have friends from all over the country, and they all have their own opinions of the city I was "born and brought up in", to use common parlance.

With no plans whatsoever to move from here, I am happy to be in my little corner of the world, despite what I keep hearing about needing to expand my horizons and stuff like that.

I like this horizon.

It's safe. It's pretty.

It has a beach where I can see an actual horizon.Where I have watched a pink sun rising on a Saturday morning, and a bright red moon rise out of the sea on a breezy night. Where I have built sand castles. Where I have eaten fried fish and prawn, molaga bajji, Pupil burgers and Nutella pancakes. Where I've been caught in a rainstorm, almost Mills and Boon style.

I've been here all of 22 (okay fine, almost 23) years. Now, I'm reading a book by an author who has made this city his home for the past decade. Tamarind City by Bishwanath Ghosh. And boy, is he making me feel guilty for not exploring my city more!

It's not that I don't know Madras. I prefer the name Madras. After all, I was born there. Chennai came into being only in 1997. Yes, yes, I know Chennapatnam and all. But this is what I like.

Anyway. I know pretty much any place in the city, I can find my way anywhere. No problems.

I get by with a little help from my friends, of course. Helmet on, Google Maps calibrated, and I'm off. I get lost, no problem. Help comes from the nearest auto stand: "Anna, indha address enga irukku? Thank you anna!" My mother finds it amusing, but that simple appeal to the 'sister sentiment' so glorified in the Tamil movies can work wonders.

Reading about all the illustrious people and the buildings that make up my home town makes me want to delve into it's history more. Note to self: go on next tour of North Madras, the place where my father will not allow me to venture alone on a two-wheeler.

That being said, it always makes me sad to see an old house being broken down; the thinnai where several generations might have sat on being reduced to rubble. And the thing is, no one really cares. The fact that the house has a story built into every brick and terracotta tile is romantic nonsense; the only thing that has value is the prime piece of property.

One thing I have noticed is that people in Madras don't really give credit to what the British did for us as a city. Yes, they took over our entire country starting from here. But that doesn't mean it isn't part of our heritage. I do not buy the drivel that if it's colonial, it's bad and deserves to be broken down. Hello, where is our Secretariat housed?  It's who we are, like it or not. And we have to celebrate that heritage, be it buildings, parks, statues, whatever.

We are traditional, no doubt about it. But that does not necessarily connect with love for our heritage. Madras week is a good way of bringing this emotion about in the people's minds, and it seems to be having some sort of effect. Here's hoping things get better.

And what is my city? My city will always be the Madras with narrow lanes in Sowcarpet, swanky houses in Besant Nagar, and the traffic filled Mount Road with brick-red buildings standing a stone's throw away from Express Avenue.

Dreams

I always had a dream. Not in the range of Martin Luther King Jr and all, but just a dream - to be a journalist. And by God's grace, I am one now.

The other day my parents and I went out to dinner. Now, Appa has always taught me by example to be nice to the people who serve us - security guards, doormen, those at a ticket counter, it could be anyone.

We parked the car, and the security guard so courteously did his job - directed us to the parking place and did it without a grumpy face as many are wont to do when it's 10PM. What struck me was his sincerity and the fact that I could see it on his face. He was older, perhaps 40 or so, greying hair and moustache.

It struck me that he too might have had dreams.

To drive his own car rather than direct others to park theirs.

To have a relaxed dinner with his wife and kids at a restaurant.

And a million ways by which he might have wanted to achieve that dream.

I'll never know.

But it makes me so, so, very sad to think of it.

It was just a thought, impulsive and it came out of nowhere. Nowhere conscious, as far as I know.

But it struck strong enough to have stuck to my mind like a leech, and it won't let go. I don't know if it is guilt , or a desire to ease some of the sadness in the world.

I flounder with my thoughts. 

Speechless

Being sick is the worst feeling. 

I wonder how all this mucus and phlegm flows unceasingly from my nose and throat. It is quite disgusting, really.

The hardest thing for me this past week was the fact that I could not speak. 

Yes, me, who cannot keep my mouth shut for any extended period of time. 

And in a way, it helped. I realised there are a lot of things I say that need not be said.

Life can go on smoothly, even if, especially if, I don't come up with any snide remarks. 

Being speechless can be a good thing sometimes. 

Emotional policing

8.30PM on a Wednesday evening. Thiruvanmiyur Beach.

It's no longer secluded like it used to be, there are several families and groups of people all along the stretch.

So me and my boy J were sitting on the ledge talking and laughing, when we saw a beautifully red moon rising.

I love the moon. It's been a long time since I saw one rising out of the sea. I wanted a closer look. We moved to the sand.

We were there for about 10 to 15 minutes when suddenly two or three policemen come walking down the beach, pulling up all the couples. Uh oh, this could be trouble.

The fattest one says, "Thambi, inga vaa paa." So the thambi very respectfully gets up and goes, expecting a rash comment or something.

Except, the policeman goes, "How can you do something like this? Isn't it wrong? You shouldn't come to the beach like this with a girl. What will your parents think?"

And J goes, "Our parents know sir, you want me to give them a call?" One super look of shock on police uncles face. He calls me, "Nee inga vaa ma."

I get up and walk to them sans slippers and ask what seems to be the problem. He unleashes the same tactic on me, "How can you come to the beach at this time? Did you think about your parents? What are you doing here?"

And I say, "Sir, I am a reporter, and I am here with my parents knowledge. If you want, you can talk to them from my mobile directly. Is there any other problem?"

By now police uncle is fully confused. The couple next to us were thoroughly scared like he expected them to be, and he has his deputies haranguing them as he grills us. But we? He was not expecting that.

Anyway, he says we shouldn't hang around here any more since it is 'late" and we should get home safely.

As we leave the seashore, J and I wonder what these moral/emotional police would say if we tell them that we are married, since they are so shocked just by the fact that we are there and our parents know. "Enna kudumbamo idhu," must have definitely run through police uncles mind!

We decide to try that out next time.

We walk back to the ledge and continue watching the moon rise.

Just another day in paradise.

Safety precautions

Everyone likes to save their own hide. Everyone takes their own precautions.

Even if it means ignoring the fact that someone has died because of someone else's negligence.

We want to be safe. We don't want to offend.

We want to paint pretty pictures to cover up the reality.

I understand that feeling; I often ignore the reality and live in my own bubble, because I prefer it that way. Life is infinitely more easier to go through if you're wearing rose-tinted glasses. 

But the feeling extends only to what I find unpalatable, and is a personal choice.

A girl, younger than me, has died. Because she wanted to go out and have a good time. It went wrong.

What happens then? 

I crack my knuckles, put up my feet, and proceed to write about the place of her death. How many such places exist, what is present there. Not more than that. 

A puff piece.

What am I going to say, when my heart is not in it?

Pride for the day

Pride - because I had a kick-ass story in the papers today.

Not much can match the feeling of accomplishment that comes with it, knowing that one sleepless night and several unfinished conversations went into writing it. TOTALLY worth it.

The page could have been in colour though. Just saying. To whoever is in-charge of deciding that.

Other than that, uneventful day. Sort of an anti-climax really.

Went to watch Ice Age 4: Continental Drift with my boy.

Yes, I have a goofy grin on my face when I talk about him. Get over it. You also, aunty-sitting-next-to-us-who-switched-seats-when-we-held-hands. I'm not stopping you from holding your husband's hand, am I?

Also, I realised those fictional animals travel way more than I ever have in my life. Must work on that. Nowhere near ice though. Too cold; I'm the freak who gets chills if I sit in an AC room for half an hour without a shawl.

My kind would have been the first to go extinct when the earth froze over.

Daydream

In my mind's eye,

Splashes of purple, red, yellow pink, swirling around - ice candy on a summer day.

I see sand castles being built, not to last.

I hear the laughter of a man and a woman, deeply in love.

I feel the dry leaves crunch under my feet.

I touch the raindrops on the windowpane.

I smell the aroma of freshly brewed coffee.

I yearn for what has been, and never will be again.

I hope it will, in vain.

I wake myself, and live.

Judging

I have an O.C.D when it comes to writing on the computer.

Those red, green and occasional blue lines drive me mad.

Which is why I don't understand how people can write without punctuation or paragraphs, and multiple spelling mistakes and typos. 

Yes, I am judging you.

Go edit what you wrote. 

Bye.

My new thing for today

So lately I've been on a F.R.I.E.N.D.S trip. Watching episode after episode till my deadline, or the one-hour power cut stops me.

Recently, I watched the one with all the resolutions - I don't ever bother with that because I won't do it and it's all one big comedy. Anyway. Ross says he wants to do one new thing a day, and it ends when he goes on a disaster date with Elizabeth Hornswagle (I know, right?), wearing leather pants no less.

I realised I get to do at least one new thing a week in my job. Well, at least it was that frequent when I first started working here. And it's all about the experiences, be it interacting with the election commissioner, randomly adopting a puppy from an adoption drive or just getting a chance to eat at all the fancy places in the city.

Today, after a long time, I had a new experience. I went sailing. Yes. In a regatta (or Raghuthaathaa, as my dear boss calls it). I even handled a jib sail and all. So fancy I felt. Of course I got queasy because there was no wind and our boat Tern kept bobbing up and down even though the water wasn't so choppy or anything. It was fun nonetheless, getting onto a boat with three other people I had never met before, trusting them not to let the boat capsize (mostly because I had my BB with me, and it has thanni-la gandam, or bad luck with water) and actually making it past the finish line first. Oh yeah. We did. Woohoo.

At least for the one race I was on-board we won. Who knows what happened after that. I abandoned ship. I had to. I had a deadline. BAH.

But still, I got to go back to the Royal Madras Yacht Club (RMYC) in a motorised dinghy controlled by a muscular, wiry coast guard guy. That was a lot more fun, believe me. Sea spray on my face, wind in my hair... Ahhh.

But the best part of it was being able to share my experiences, by putting it down in words for readers to read the next day. And that was when the experience became whole and complete.

  

Lovers on the beach...

Found this in my drafts. I still feel this way:

What makes the beach, the seaside, so romantic?

More often than not, our beaches are covered in trash and smell of fish. Hardly the aroma of love!

Still, at any time of the day, at least a dozen couples are to be found, doing whatever it is lovers do. Ok, so I DO know what they do, no need to give that sceptical look. I've done my fair share of it too. Ahem.

Personally, I have many memories of the beach, including one very windy, rainy evening. Oh those Mills & Boon romances have got it right.

Anyway. Yes. I shall stop mooning over the past and get back on track.

Every time I see these couples, sometimes even at 6AM on a Saturday morning (when I'm there bleary-eyed in a rumpled kurta covering a rally or walkathon or something similar), it makes me wonder about where they come from, where they go.

Especially the secrecy. Never having to hide the fact that I'm going to meet my special someone whenever we went out, the situation is very strange to me. How does one hold SUCH a big secret inside, and not share your happiness with the ones who love you the most?

So puzzling.

Being near the sea just makes me feel like there are infinite possibilities in my world. The horizon is endless. And I think those lovers on the beach feel it too, unshackled from the lives they lead when they leave the waves.

Hello.

So. MORE than a year since I blogged, but recent inspiration has brought me back.

 So much has changed. Even the blogger dashboard is different and I got confused looking at it. But that's just me - confused as always.

Be that as it may, I can safely say I do not miss writing. It is after all my job now, to write what I see, sometimes what I don't see. Either way, I get to write. Flow words all over the page. Type. Click clack click clack.

I've even learned to type without squinting at the keyboard. Yaay me.

Yes, I crib and cry about the hours and the stress, but never about the monotony. It is never still. I am never allowed to be still. Yet, I love every moment of it. Every fibre of my being is tuned to be on the go at a second's notice.

It's tough being on the move without my scooter. Without intending offence to those who have lost their legs, I feel like mine are cut off at the hip. And it's just been a week since I sold my old bike and impatient me has driven my poor father to madness by asking him 15067 times a day when the new one will arrive.

I wonder how some of my colleagues go reporting without wheels. I mean, I've taken the bus once in the past week, and the fact that every time I take public transport I have to yell at a guy to stop falling on the ladies side of the bus... Well, I just don't have the patience any more.

Therefore, I am this week's auto-rani. I don't even bat an eyelid when they ask Rs 100 from Purasaiwalkam to Kilpauk. Nice, no? Rival newspaper has started ad campaign to bring back auto meters and all, but I doubt if it will appeal to the government. Considering they have a defamation suit filed against them by the CM, among other things.

That's the story this week. Hopefully new tales to follow.